as of late (or a semi-tribute post)

now that i get to talk about it more, some people say i handled the whole debacle quite maturely. but that's thanks mostly to friends who rushed as soon as i called, to whom i am eternally grateful (that's googledoll and dark-vader). the funny thing is (and this is but one of the late realizations), i don't think i would have acted that way had i not consulted anyone, because now that i'm relatively on my own in resolving all of these issues, i realize that i have the capacity to consider drastic measures, thoughts which were pre-empted by the wisdom of my friends. so thanks. wouldn't have my sanity now without you.

because i need to be juvenile sometimes

i don't know what form of apology i'm still asking of you. but i really want it to be big and revolutionary, or maybe just something that i know you really thought about. it's the pride that surging now, the thought that those people know what happened and they probably think i'm this frigid and evil girlfriend that you have to put up with. and that i'm such a bitch to break that poor girl's heart. and maybe i'm thinking that you might be thinking that way too.

at putangina lang talaga niya at nga mga kaibigan niyang baduy, magsama silang mga panget at bobo. papayag ba ko na minamata lang nila ko eh ang tatanga lang naman nila? kaya ako nainis when you tried to act all mature and non-judgmental about it. gusto ko lang naman magalit ka rin sa kanila para sa akin. is that too much?

wahaha! try niyo rin!

thesis angas

grabe na talaga itong CL 199 ko. nadedemoralize ako sa aming prof, super kung manakot. at tinawag na niya akong "irresponsible" and "you're so undisciplined." although directed siya sa buong class, feel na feel ko na ako ang pinatatamaan niya, lalo na kanina when the person who was supposed to report wasn't prepared at ako ang susunod, and siyempre di pa rin ako prepared dahil nga ang alam ko next meeting pa ko. leche, biglang nagka-transference of anger. eh hindi naman dapat ako yung binulyawan niya noh, dapat yung kaklase kong tatanga-tanga. for that sabi niya magde-deduct siya ng points sa akin by next meeting even if i do well in my report.

goodbye cum laude.

iisipin ko na lang si bordieu at ang symbolic violence na nagaganap sa pagbibigay ng grades sa educational apparatus para hindi ako masyadong madismaya.

because i turned 21

i thought it was high time that i got myself pink highlights. some strands turned red, though. two days later, my parents paid a surprise visit. and were they surprised.

my father didn't really like it, but i bet deep inside he saw it coming. maybe he felt a glint of pride, even, hahaha. my mother liked it a little. great, so that solves the dilemma of how to explain things when i go home on tuesday.

my father and i took a spin around campus after lunch while my mother had a haircut in a nearby parlor. while driving, my father tried to convince me to change the color.

papa: "masyado kasing matingkad. palitan mo kaya, yung medyo brown naman..."
me: "di, wag na." (i was trying to ignore him, it worked earlier when he first saw me).
papa: "ikaw." -pause- "basta katrina ayoko ng tatoo ha!"
me: "ayoko naman talaga ng tatoo noh."
papa: "ah basta ayoko talaga ng tatoo ha."
me: "uh, okay."
papa: "tandaan mo yan ha, ayoko na talaga ng tatoo ha."
me: "okay, okay!"

there's gloria over my head, frowning. maybe that's because the highlights are, in caloy's terms, "radicalized." hehe.

happy 21st (late birthday post)

my birthday at italiani's for the third consecutive year. unfortunately, for the third consecutive year as well, i didn't like what i ordered. the pasta lacked that rich tomato flavor that i liked. but i still look happy, don't i? that's because of the singing waiters...

...and because i still got the "free" ice cream!...


...and two of my favorite boys were with me :)


birthday girl with a present, hehe.

proud sister

my fourteen-year-old brother stays in my bedroom when i'm away. while fixing my stuff this afternoon, i found a crumpled sheet of paper near my mirror. guess what? my brother writes poetry!

it's high school poetry, but it's a start. and it's not mushy. i forgot the title, but it's "thoughts and..." something. at may konsepto siya ng line breaks. at pencil ang ginamit niya sa pagsusulat (wala lang, parang mas artsy fartsy pag pencil). medyo disturbing lang dahil gloomy ang tone ng tula.

biguin and oplan bantay laya

Rie Mon "Ambo" Guran

Ambo was a 4th year Political Science student and League of Filipino Students spokesperson in Aquinas University, Legaspi City, Albay. He was also an active member of the UCCP-Christian Youth Fellowship of the South Bicol Conference.

Ambo was shot dead inside a passenger bus at 6:15 AM last Monday. He was on his way to school with his aunt and younger sister. According to witnesses, the gunman escaped on a motorcycle, with companions waiting outside the bus.

On the same day, another activist and a journalist were also murdered. The day before, Ambo celebrated his 21st birthday.

Download and reproduce the poster condemning Ambo's murder. View photos and videos on Ambo from Arkibong Bayan. Or read a news article on the Monday killings from the Philippine Daily Inquirer.


Cris Hugo

Cris was a 4th year Journalism student at the College of Arts and Letters of Bicol University in Legaspi City, Albay. He was the regional coordinator and a national council member of the League of Filipino Students. Cris was also the elected Grand Chancellor of the Alpha Phi Omega Fraternity chapter in his university.

On the evening of March 20, while walking home with his professor, Cris was shot dead. He was 20.

Download Cris Hugo, 1986-2006: Bayani ng Sambayanan, a short documentary by Sine Patriyotiko, in .wmv format. Or read an article on Cris from Bulatlat.com.



(repost from karl's deviant art page here.)